To dare, to dream, to win: November 2006

warning!!

damn co-op cheat money. can u believe the same calculator cost $5 more when i buy from the arts co-op compared to e science one?

damn it..

hmm.. ok time to nap. didn't have a gd slp yday :s but thankfully i managed to squeeze out ans.. chant for the best liao.. SHE rox.. will see them 2 months from now hehe

go go go!

hope i can slp tonite. lol. 四月努力用在一朝。。。

"Where can we find happiness? Happiness is not found in a tranquil life free of storms and tempests. Real happiness is found in the struggles we undergo to realize our goals, in our efforts to move forward." -- Daisaku Ikeda

seriously i need a doc

ya.. i think i really got 失忆症。。。i read the txtbook at least the 2nd time or i think 3rd times for some parts but seriously i dun remember a thing... :S

anyway thanks for all the concern shown for the previous post.. wow!

HMPH!!

some ppl are darn rude...

if u happen to be reading this, pls do some soul-searching..

think ppl are gradually forget to say even a simple word of "thanks" in many cases

anyway, this exam is taking too freaking long.. it's draining me

raise the alarm..

that's wat i come to know of today...

suddenly realise i dunno a lot of things, though the official revision is supposed to start tmr

progress is slow. when u have to spend 1 hr to read just a few pages of notes which is like the old basic stuff?? there is this very yucky reading problem with me. i can see some simple stuff and start to try to.. erm.. memorise? understand? OR find new meaning?? dunno wat, just that i got a reading problem..

ok and i better be more constructive tmr

for now time to slp. the words can't get into my head

"Depending on how we view a given situation, its meaning will change completely. Can we not say, then, that faith is the inexhaustible source that gives us the ability to accept all events in a constructive manner?" -- Daisaku Ikeda

looks like i got back e mood...

but then efficiency is still a doubt!

hmmm hope to call my members tmr and i better do that.. dun slack!

not easy...

abt 24 hrs ago i was living in a state of hell. yes. very much. not that hell literally, but seriously i just lost the sense of purpose. actually think the real thing started only 18 hrs ago at nite, but i suppose it lasted just that long. 18 hrs. but finally things are becoming better. and well trying hard to improve.

i could have plunged all e way down, if that just 20 min of daimoku wasn't there. it just woke me up. and lucky it did

hmmm why feel upset?

did i just post this yesterday?

"Winning in life is not a matter of form or appearances. It has nothing to do with vanity. Victory in life ultimately hinges on whether one has truly fought, whether one has truly advanced." -- Daisaku Ikeda

at least i tried my best rite? on come on, i aso didn't start off well last exam, but my grades improve n improve.. surely i will do that again! and considering the time i put in all my modules this sem, i deserve sth.

yes i do

went out just now..

for the weekly daimokukai..

i must say a bit not in the mood to go, my pain is really always there... but well thanks to a reminder sms by qw, i made my way there...

well, a gd solid 1 hr of daimoku, so it's a gd trip spent...

tmr is really very important.... so stressed that i really didn't carry on revising the other papers.. i really need and must do it! and i will. let me fight a gd battle tmr.. and the rest will be just as gd

"Winning in life is not a matter of form or appearances. It has nothing to do with vanity. Victory in life ultimately hinges on whether one has truly fought, whether one has truly advanced." -- Daisaku Ikeda

what happened?

to wat i say yday?

stupid headache spoilt my day. can't blame it. blame myself for allowing it to happen

slow. progress is slow. i feel as though i only got 1 paper to take. spend like 3 hrs on 1 piece of note? and it's not even e thickest.

change is wat i need

many thanks to my frends...

who are always there to help me when i have questions; esp zhuqing n sp..actually there are other ppl. alot to name... paiseh if i miss out ur name ah.. anyway thanks all.. and also thanks to others like xy, who we always have sth to chat .. not forgetting that round grey sheep, who is also concussed as xy say.. haha

finally solve a few days long question, the thing is, it's one abt concept so it's so fundamentally important. of cos there are many lurking n i hope to get them solved soon.. and this reignited the already almost dying fighting spirit in me. I suppose it's really the stress building up in me, the importance of doing well, the fear of not..

let me set a target.. i must go for this sat's meeting, in the happiest mood... and how will that happen? 1 way

win

sorry not convincing. let me try again

I MUST WIN!!

ok that's better! =)

"By challenging a great goal, you can break through your limitations and realize incredible growth." -- Dr Daisaku Ikeda

sigh..

i basically did nth today..

it's quite demoralising when u stare at the paper for 1 hr n dunno how to start

worse u wan to get help but dunno from who..

ok it's a bit not the way things shd be done..

do sth abt it

mixed feelings..

i realise how fast one's mood can change.. if not the mutual possession of the 10 worlds will be false...

just now 1 telephone call vitalise me from a state of "dun wish to do anything"... actually b4 that i was glad jj ans my call. had a small talk, got that encouraged him. finally i feel i did sth "gd" as a cic today...also had a very small msn chat with mh. must say as a friend i didn't do enuff to show my care and didn't do much to help in the district when he was bz with his work =_=..as what lester said that day is true..."it is only when leaders show concern for members and members show the same concern for the leaders that gakkai can continue as a humanistic organisation." well, hope mh will get recharged for this 2 weeks.. while i continue to learn to be a better person

progress isn't as fast as hope. in fact is slow. jason ask me got time to study my stuff. for now i will still say yes, though i havent touch my mle.. well i hate e exam schedule this time. but it's not the point. ok i spend too much time on question which could have been just browse through, partly cos i "thought" i still have time. i shd start thinking i dun have time... tt will work better. keep getting stuck in silly mistakes. and i dun like to part of "is the time worth to do this qn again"

time to slp. recharge. and get my brain functioning.

functioning alone is not enuff

function with efficiency pls

"A person with conviction is strong. That individual is beset neither by confusion nor by lack of purpose. In whatever circumstances, such person never despairs, buy always directs his life towrs the positive." -- Dr. Daisaku Ikeda

hmmm

when setting targets, they must be realistic, else u end up wondering y u are so slow...

a bit the lost, feel overwhelmed till i dunno where to start!

hope i can help him, maybe i'm not doing gd enuff as a cic...

if u think u can get full marks, u can! =)

"Our wisdom is essentially unlimited. It can make the impossible possible. And it arises from the firm resolve to achieve something. Earnest prayer is the mother of wisdom." -- Dr Daisaku Ikeda

12 points adrift..

can't believe it .. 26 shots 10 on target . .yet can't even win when opponent just 2 shots and the only shot on target is the goal? :S

talking abt goals and targets, i suppose it's always better to set goals n targets. at least sth to aim for..

uphill task ahead, esp when i dunno wat i might face

"Study is always a great personal struggle. Those who conquer that tendency to give up halfway win in the end." -- Dr. Daisaku Ikeda

friends...

the bond of friendship is definitely not judged by its length, something i have come to realise..

it depends on its depth. and it can be seen from just simple gestures, really, esp the concern someone shows.. sad to say, some friendships though appeared strong, are just built on mediocre stuff...but as i say, i'm glad i know true real friends...

my day has just started. cos i just start to do things...其实也不知该做什么。。。

世界上那么多人，只有我一个人，能拯救自己的快乐世界上那么多人，只有我一个人，能拯救自己的快乐

"Let's tear down any walls within our minds. For it is often the case that we ourselves determine our limits."

well..

i now know i can't wake up early. cos i will wan to slp...

let the things of the past be the past....

still not in the mood. i actually think of it... must pick up momentum..

still some stuff left undone. actually is i dunno where to start..

must solve those 1st...

"Every single day is of vital importance. Each second is decisive. Only whn we strive to the limit of our ability to open the way ahead, seizing each moment and using it valuably, will we ensure that a brilliant future awaits us." -- Dr Daisaku Ikeda

GST hike..

so that the government can have more money to help the lower income ppl .. well, doesn't the hike affect lower income group also? in a way, aren't u increasing their burden also? how ironic...

i often read muse of a blog. it's rather sad to be a servant of someone. and i didn't know servants get rewards too..

"Rather than a life of blank pages, it's better to live a life crammed full of memories of struggles and wonderfully varied experiences. Not to make waves, not to leave behind any history, but just to grow old and die, is a sad way to live." -- Dr. Daisaku Ikeda

i love the sheep.....

so cute n cuddly.. thanks!! =)

"This lifetime will never come again, it is precious and irreplaceable. To live without regret, we must have a concrete purpose, continually setting goals and challenges for ourselves. And we need to keep moving towards those specific tragets steadily and tenaciously, one step at a time." -- Dr. Daisaku Ikeda

allow me to..

sacrifice my less than 5 hr left slping time to blog..

went for my institution meeting yday. was a fruitful one. encouraging... and i receive the powerful tool. exam guidance! it was really very nicely designed by jiahao. haha the quality is really improving each time! keep it up!

then after the meeting went to causeway point for dinner cos my da sao bday soon. soup restaurant food is nice! esp the chicken n the ginger yum yum! anyway i going to be uncle soon! well not sure how long but next year..hehe

things are not proceeding as i wish. but maybe i not putting in enuff efforts. i nv like papers n reports cos they eat up too much time.. and for them to come at the wrong time makes things worse... i can't start. but there is still time. i seriously just need to be efficient. ya tt's the key. not how much time u spend. but how much quality time...

can't give up now..

"There is no such thing as a whole life of smooth sailing. Therefore, you do yourself a favour by taking on difficult challenges, forging and strengthening yourself in your youth, while you're healthy and strong. I hope you can see all difficulties as the material that will enable you to develop a big heart and become people of depth and substance." -- Dr. Daisaku Ikeda

bz bz bz!!

lots of things undone. things lagging and not enuff time!! must be efficient!

going out tmr for a institution meeting.. will be a fruitful one i m sure, followed by a dinner at nite... ohnoooooooooo

today's interview went out very gd.. ya an interview conducted in chinese.haha the interviewer, who is a dr, is really nice.. ok other than the pathetic pay, i suppose the IA will be a fulfilling one... a chance to research on polymer membrane, and maybe the chance to work under a prof at nus, and even a extension for a topic for fyp? ok i m thinking too far

but well gonna create value out of this fyp. tt's for sure.. somemore i must say the dr really have high hopes that i will be of gd help and well i better do it..haha

i just on my desktop..

and wat took 30min was gone in 30 secs...

30 days later it will be back. ya n it's exactly 30 days..

try as i might i still can't get the high life condition i need..

明天会更好！！一定会。。

blog blog..

long time since i last blogged.. well long in my view...

i feel jialat... the exams are coming.. yet i dun feel the sense of urgency.. tt's so unlike me lor.. hai.. maybe i have already inbuilt the mentality that "i'm taking 5 mods, i feel slack".. well tt's wat i did tell many ppl.. i can't believe that when the exam is nearing, the hrs i spend on gaming also increase.. and the stupid thing is if i havent get the cd from chun tt time, i wun have started playing wc again.. but i shall not blame others in e end also nobody force me to play... but seriously it's very scary.. cos i know wat happened when i last was so slack.. and i mustn't let history repeat itself! nth wrong with playing n relacing. but when it goes to extremes...tt's it

and i got alot of undone have to hand in work..HOW?

win based on faith..

=(

pain

anxiety

stress

hopefully they will disappear soon

i need the life force

the high life condition

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